Photophile

Floor shots are surprising because you never know what you’re gonna get. You don’t exactly view the world from that angle right?

The fact that you could just walk out with a camera looking for inspiration and then go back to your processing machine with something you like, it’s kinda scary because when does every picture you take become something from the stock photos? Like, the more you take, the less personal it becomes?

I’m a horrible person by the way. Today was another one of those days where I break my promises and not show up again. Past few days I’ve realized that I’m actually unable to have fun/enjoy myself. During occasions that is, normally I’m just fine I guess, maybe it’s because of the expectations. The bigger something is, the greater my expectation, so that sums up to inability to have fun.

My absence. Pretty common these days. Mom called to ask if I had certain pictures and it on the spot made me feel like an asshole photographer, “no, I do not have it, I do not want to work in that environment thus, I do not have it.” Like a working adult who hasn’t reached an agreement with the opposing party and no longer wants to cooperate. Even though it boils down to merely showing up as a relative and fulfil your supposed duty as a cousin. However that night pretty much scared the crap out of me.

I remember hearing the alarm go off, I remember getting up and shutting it off yet going back to sleep.

I remember needing the TV to doze off to *oh look, Discovery Channel! plop* or else I’d have an insomniac night.

Speaking of which, they have these shows like Weaponology and Ultimate Weapon or whatnot which were entertaining because girls like me never knew how bullets transited from lead balls (which they had to make themselves during campfires) to long ass bullets! Supposedly they had to shove powder in and then the lead balls and then something else, so you have these 20th Century bullets which have the powder at the back and the p word too, the head of the bullet would be the bullet itself. Then there’s this rifle… Okay my facts are crooked so I don’t really want to ramble anymore. I really do enjoy 55x though, that day I watched the show about candies, Jelly Belly was on, then few days later there was this post about the product so I was rather grateful that I watched it. Only when 41x have nothing to watch though, what else can you watch when there’s nothing on 711? Well, Forbes lists. It’s always nice to stumble upon a good movie. Like Hellboy! Shotguns are deadly!

Supposed I’m a loser at heart, say, you enjoy people underestimating your capability and then shocking them as you make it. Also, another advantage would be that if you do let them down it wouldn’t be much of a shocker. Sigh, and to think that I was looking forward to starting the business of loaning bytes.

2%!! Ought to put those bytes to good use right? Here I thought it was 1TB drive but why does it say 700? Is it like that? They’d rounded it up? Doesn’t make sense though. Did Mr. Awesome put 300gb somewhere? Sigh sometimes I do despise my lack of understanding in such things.

You you’re just no good for me

but you’re sweet like a cupcake

and I want to eat you up, you