Photophile

And there’s just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I’ve made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid ‘cuz you were so much better than me

Hands down one of my favourite song and it pretty much fits the situation that I’m in, except for the last part of the song so I’m gonna scratch it out. *psst, if you’re reading, I don’t get the last part of the post.* Then you go, as usual lah./that’s the point./yes! my evil plan has worked. Then I go, ugh…

My monologue. > You realize sometimes that you wish for someone to talk about something and when they do, it scares the crap out of you, like how we always want someone to say I love you and when they do, you run away? You suddenly become, yeah, a coward? That sort of thing. Haven’t exactly found a cure or whatnot to that..

Because you think that when people express themselves, well, what if they don’t like your response? Like, you might go crazy over it and talk more than you should then they’re just gonna go, okay… And leave you exhausted from all the respiration when you talk.

You know, since by the time you’ve got all your courage to confront them, they no longer care? Which happens a lot with this friend of mine but it’s probably because I thought it wouldn’t matter much eh? That my irresponsibleness was predictably another walk at the park. That perhaps I could get away with every no-show. Hopefully. *queues image of a big headed small puff of smokey figure of a sheepishly person* Oh, here you go…

More to a creepy bald weird sheepish looking idiot.. Alright it’s not the best drawing anyone could ever do on PS… But you get the idea. I never know how to work the brushes in PS too. Something I oughta learn. Well I could somehow hear screams like NOOOO IT’S OKAY DON’T NEED TO GET YOUR HANDS INTO DRAWING! ha..ha…

Sigh… I’m a lousy horrible friend. Nuff said. I do acknowledge that. BUT HEY, in my defense I’ve done some very good things as a friend, let’s not forget that. But mostly I’m a lousy person, yes yes. Then again I don’t know how many times I’ve screwed up in this one. *Queues memory of pleading and all that talking that night during Bon Odori* *shudders*

And I wonder if I could make it this Saturday. :s I fear Saturdays!!

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I find it easier to forgive someone when you understand their side of the story, like, perhaps they got caught up in an accident… Alright, I’ve been sleeping in the TV room, which means uninterrupted sleep, which means not waking up when I should, which means I’m a giant ass for sleeping there at the first place but the bedroom upstairs was leaking and it’s so much easier to sleep while watching the TV, ease the depression you see, depression and stress of you know what, and even when I’ve set the alarm which I don’t do at all if I was gonna go out with anyone else, I still thought I could sleep a while more which turned out to be disastrous. I think I’m better off going to school, makes me a better person. Gah.

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There you go, talking more than I should. Writing. In this case.

Sorry leh friend.. :( :( I promise not to do it again, I know I’ve made this promise before so I don’t really trust myself saying this. Guess we’ll never have the privilege of you initiating anymore. :s

Lookie!!

TATUM? Yes he’s charming and all but he doesn’t seem too smart you know? I don’t know if I like the combination of Seyfried and Tatum. Then again I’ve only watched two movies from both of them, Mean Girls and Mamma Mia, Step Up and G.I. Joe. Oh and also She’s The Man, lol Duke. NO WONDER ! No wonder I don’t have an impression of him as the smart guy, couldn’t shake off the image of him shoving tampon into his nose, I think he did that. Maybe it’s time that Seyfried take the part as the lead, “My breasts can always tell when it’s going to rain. ” Come to think about it they’ve both played dumb roles, then again I might be overanalyzing.

They do look good in this picture. And the only thing I’ve heard about the book was from a classmate raving about it. So, hopefully! It’ll be good.

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Ahaha! Mummies, hope not.

I think the transition that I’ve done personally from favouring low-fi cameras to DSLRs is because I realize I can’t take pictures like *above*, thus resorting to a more artsy? perhaps form of photography. Yes, I do detest the fact that they’re making it so damn expensive to buy a lomo camera and also the fact that they … Ahh nevermind. Can’t beat the love we have for the vignette and muhh…

To die by your side, it’s such a heavenly way to die.

DVD!! I shall watch it on DVD since it’s seemingly fated for me to not be able to watch it on a huge ass screen! Why is it so hard to watch this movie?!

OMG. It’s on! :D New week meaning new episodes! WOOOHOOOO.

Okay, time to get off the internet and study.

Ah.. ha..